Mask

Behind my eyes he stares and stares
Looking out at a world
For which he does not care.
He’s locked inside -this other me
A creature I dare not let free.
He rages, complains and paces my mind,
Towards me his words are always unkind.
Sometimes my anger
Nearly sets him sets him free.
This hidden thing – this other me.
What he might do I dare not ask.
He must always remain
Locked behind my mask.

Mark Catlin–November 2012

Twin Obsession.
My twin is inside bleeding
My twin is cut and scarred
He’ll tempt me-
Then he’ll punish me
For being feeble
Leave me here-
Alone-hollow

(Altered States–Lyrics)

 

 

 

Malnutrition and other ‘Victorian’ diseases soaring in England ‘due to food poverty and cuts’

The real effects of Tory policy, not the rubbish they’re allowed to keep repeating on mainstream politics and news shows. The UK they talk about on those shows exists only in their heads.

http://www.independent.co.uk/life-style/health-and-families/health-news/malnutrition-and-other-victorian-diseases-soaring-in-england-due-to-food-poverty-and-cuts-a6711236.html

‘Harmful’ ESA benefit sanctions double in one year – who’s at risk and why

|Mirror Online|
http://www.mirror.co.uk/money/harmful-esa-benefit-sanctions-double-5849195#ICID=sharebar_twitter

Shame

I wonder if you can see
I wonder if you can tell
I wonder if you see through
The mask I wear so well
I’ll never let you know
What’s going on inside me
My shame, locks me down

All the things I wanted to tell you
All the things I never will
Every time you reached out to me
All I did was push you away
I can’t unchain the beast
That screams inside me
I hate it, it’s what I am

[Chorus]
It makes me sick to be so mean
From where I’ve been
And what I’ve seen
From top to bottom
I am obscene
It stands in my place
It spits in my face
Shame

You smile at me, I smile back
You ask me how I am
I tell you that I’m fine
I don’t know why
I’m so torn up inside my mind
The darkness, it swallows me whole

[Chorus]

It makes that old lie
It makes that old lie
It makes me look at myself
And say Man, you’re doing just fine
You’re doing great
I’m not living in a lie
I’m not living in a lie or am I?

Don’t go too deep
Don’t ask me why
Don’t try to know me
Don’t make me lie
I wish
I didn’t know the things
I know so well
I try to change
But it’s what I am

It makes me sick to be so mean
From what I’ve been
And what I’ve seen
From top to bottom
I am obscene
It stands in my place
It spits in my face
It’s shame, shame
Am I living in a lie?

Lyrics:Henry Rollins

Mask

Behind my eyes he stares and stares
Looking out at a world
For which he does not care.
He’s locked inside -this other me
A creature I dare not let free.
He rages, complains and paces my mind,
Towards me his words are always unkind.
Sometimes my anger
Nearly sets him sets him free.
This hidden thing – this other me.
What he might do I dare not ask.
He must always remain
Locked behind my mask.

Mark Catlin–November 2012

Twin Obsession.
My twin is inside bleeding
My twin is cut and scarred
He’ll tempt me-
Then he’ll punish me
For being feeble
Leave me here-
Alone-hollow

(Altered States–Lyrics)

 

 

 

From Manic

From Manic. . . .
When the darkness comes creeping
In over the corners of your mind
and you “know” no one can help you
No matter how kind.

The empty darkness rolls in
Like fog over a moor
and your unhappiness rises
Like an angry drunk up off the floor

Questions keep you up at night
and you have no strength to fight
Just an empty longing deep inside
For the returning of the light.

Mark Catlin 2014