2-Short
1) Behaviour Principle
They believe “it”
I can’t stand to see it
The acquiescent apathy of fools
That rush to judgment
Of anything different
Those uncompromising
Followers of rules..
2) Lucidity Analysis
For everything a season
All humans have their reasons
To hate, to love, to fight and more
When reason walks….
In or out the door
Mark Catlin July 2015
Preconceptions fed
Closed minds
Chorused voices
Dog-whistle opinions
With back biting considered
Countered facts
Spreadsheet empathy
Cold ideology
Band-wagon mentality
And repression with impunity
Fragile unity
False Exceptions
Carnival of ignorance
Alongside
Headline ignominy
Wasted efforts
Deep ingrained lies
Social regression
And
Tissues of lies
Group hypnotherapy
Cultured insanity
Plastic hypocrisy
With
Corrupted heredity
Controlled hysteria
oxy-moron(ia)
Faked emotional
Leading to..
Future dystopia
Mark Catlin
May 2016
Past things that shape me from inside
From boy to man pain magnified
From being bullied to a lover’s lies
The scars that settle deep inside
From a friends betrayal
Or my feelings brushed aside
Part of me has somehow died
Replaced with darkness I’m lost inside
The anger I feel pulsing behind my eyes
Like rising burning poison bile
Flooding over my emotions it then nullifies
Are these symptoms of my going insane?
Or just a fracture through which leaks my pain
From a battle waged within my soul
The emptiness shall not let go
Things out of the past
That shape me from inside
From childhood to man
Pain I try, in vain, to hide
My cries for help
Ignored or vilified
Every trust I extend-betrayed
Loss turns to burning rage inside
I can feel it hiding behind my eyes
Like rising, burning, poison bile
Flooding my emotions to nullify
Just more symptoms of my going insane?
Or just a fracture through which
Leaks my pain
Try to hide-it
Keep it locked-inside
The emptiness which
Invades my mind.
Mark Catlin—2012
2-Short
1) Behaviour Principle
They believe “it”
I can’t stand to see it
The acquiescent apathy of fools
That rush to judgment
Of anything different
Those uncompromising
Followers of rules..
2) Lucidity Analysis
For everything a season
All humans have their reasons
To hate, to love, to fight and more
When reason walks….
In or out the door
Mark Catlin July 2015
Up down inside out
Pushing pulling drowning out
Open closing
Walk in cold
Empty minded
Growing Old
Demonstrating remonstrating
Open mouthed
Fornication copulation
Pleasure intense
Dreamscapes and frenzy
Power and class
Downward spiralling no one asks
Onwards sideways what’s to see
Breakdown lockdown
Differences will always be
Ugly pretty vanity
Vain conceited me me me
Action reaction opposites attract
Worrying vying slow to act
Truth in confessions truth not lies
Majestic graceful
Beauty in crying eyes
Thoughtful generous I wish to be
Question the answer no apathy please
Haves versus have nots
And the eager to please
Go down fighting
Don’t live cowering on knees
Mark Catlin July 2015
Close your eyes
Shut it out
Nevermind
It’s over for now
Feelings crowd in
Your mind it freezes
Thinking slows
Never easy
Whatever next
Emotions expressed
Can’t repress
Interpret the rest
Inner mind
Deep inside
Try to find
A clear sign
Thoughts explode
Time erodes
The past exposed
To all who know.
Mark Catlin
April 2016
Revealing Me. pt.II
This enemy inside
Takes away my pride
Invades my very soul
Won’t leave me alone.
Pushes against me
Day after day you see
Digs through all my pain
Most days are the same.
Yet another day I’m free
Just the real me
Rare, they come they go
It’s the only life I know.
Write out how I feel
So you can know it’s real
The strangeness that is me
What you get is what you see.
Mark Catlin—July2014.
I’m just working on “digitizing” my work (I work longhand), so I can post-it. A lot of the work I’ve been posting I’ve written as an expression of my Manic Depression (now called Bi-polar disorder) it’s my way of saying “this is me, I’m no longer afraid of the stigma that goes hand in hand with mental health problems” So bear with me-more to follow. M
Revealing Me. pt1
Underneath this flesh and bone
Hides my mind always alone.
A place where thoughts come and go,
A place where all my knowledge grows.
My mind is full of my ideas,
Memories stored and recalled at will.
A place that hides things of which I dare not speak,
A place where I can be honest, brave or meek.
Inside my mind I’m always true,
inside this place
I keep my memories of you,
A past that’s gone and stored away,
To think of on some quiet day.
Inside my mind there is only me,
Inside my mind I’m always free.
Mark Catlin 2013
If you believe it
You cannot deceive it
It will come back to haunt you in the end
What was the answer?
I knew it once
But I pushed it out of my head
So now as time passes I hear
The same old questions, never answers
Swirl around in my head
Connection to others
Requires effort (ugh)
I need to be reminded
Time and time again
Why it’s worth it–is it?
I only remember the pain – so vividly,
The refrain like a favourite song
What do I want?
I think I know some days
That silent touch
A soft kiss
Not much to ask?
It always depends on how it might end
Yet another fracture in my head
That opens when its quietest
Laying in the dark in my bed
Into which reaches the pain
The refrain, yes that again
It’s all I can-to feel
Daydreams rarely suffice
Although sometimes nice
It’s a way to shut out the silence
If you believe it
You cannot deceive it
It (always) comes back to haunt you in the end
Moving forward
Forward is moving
Getting better?
Stop! And check your mind
Another person to talk to
Another lost soul to find
Another day of survival
We’re all the same inside-alone
Pointlessness
Is the order of the day
Seems the empty minds
Now hold sway
Those like me
That feel the pain of being
So empty, so out of place
Watching, listening
Helplessly….
While the countdown rushes unchecked to the end.
Mark Catlin 2011
Understanding the meaning of struggle
Giving your whole life to a single passion
Which others may or may not
Consider obsolete
Like a rare flower
Seen by a few before it withers and dies
(before it withers and dies)
Seeing it all
All the way through the very end
Regardless
A full stop followed by an exclamation mark
Written in your flesh and blood
Getting knocked down every time
Getting knocked down every moment you get up – until you love getting up
I know what you’ve been going through
I’ve been there too
God knows I’ve been pushing hard Pushing so damn hard -I’ve forgotten what the hell I’m even -Pushing for
Recognize it when it happens to you
Learn to recognize it and know what to do
Stop clinging on, let go, own nothing
Do it out of love
Do it out of love
Words cannot substitute
Losing everything
Losing your home
Losing your money
Your dignity
Losing your mind – your beliefs, ideals
Then and only then
When everything is gone
You no longer care
Your soul standing naked and bare
Stripped down to the truth
Then you’ll find everything
On heaven and earth
On heaven and earth
On heaven and earth
The struggle is long
The struggle is hard
The struggle is beautiful
Lyrics; J. Coleman
From the album; Extremities, Dirt And Various Repressed Emotions. By Killing Joke.
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